Grandma: Mushroom stew / my Issac

posted on: 2011.06.05
http://www.rationalchristianity.net/abe_isaac.html

i was reading "Forever Ruined for the Ordinary"
God has a detailed, remarkable plan for every person's life--a plan consistent with His character. He is a remarkable God. But He never intended us to make our plans and then ask Him to bless them. What an insult to the One who created us and who alone knows how to fulfill us.


Proverbs 20:24 NIV - A man's steps are directed by the Lord. / How then can anyone understand His own way?
"We don't have the faintest idea what is best for us, so what a relief that there is a Master Mind who does--a God with a heart full of unfathomable love and with the ability to communicate with all of us who want to listen and obey.

So there we have it. (at least for me.)
I must put down my "Issac" and seek His will. perhaps it's my inability to let go, that's holding me back. :/

Grandma story:
i was waching a re-run of Kang Shim Jang featuring Kara. normally i'd be all over SY's comments and how cute she looked, but she was trumped by Hara on that front. well the focus of this particular tidbit is Gyuri. her grandma story made me remember what happened 5 years ago.

It must've been October 2006, when i visited Korea to prepare for my grad school entrance exam.
she was suffering from Alzheimer's, but didn't think much of it. rationalizing that i'll visit when i get a chance after the exam. a phone call came through while i was visiting HUFS to speak to a professor about her thoughts on my prospects at the school: Grandma had passed away.. :/

went down ASAP, but had to come back up the next day and missed the rainy funeral, because i had to come back up to Seoul.
at least i was in Korea to attend the wake.

The last memory i have of her is from 2002, when she was healthy. she took me to a local mushroom stew place. (i hated mushrooms at that point, and was just beginning to eat enoki mushrooms..) and way, for "service" they just brought out more mushrooms. [i'm tearing up as i type while recalling]
i remember eating it, while not liking it. oh how i miss the taste of mushroom stew that day.

flash back to 2005, as luck would have it, someone stole my camera with all my pics. from the wake and later of the grave.
but i made a promise then.. to dedicate my exam and entrance to grandma.
5 years, memories had faded, and i live the life i lead.
but thanks to Gyuri's story, i'm back on top of it.
go do what i gotta do! :D